Underneath the Stars.

Thursday, July 21, 2011

hmm..

9:15 PM

我爱你，不在乎你是否高大帅气、

我爱你，不在乎你是否有房有车、

我爱你，只因你的真诚，你的平凡。

从遇见你那天起，

就认定了你是能够守护我一生的那个人，

只要有你在身边，其他什么东西都已不再重要。

有些人，总能让我们笑的最灿烂，哭的最彻底。

有些人，你说不出哪里好，但就是谁都替代不了。

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

O.u.c.h.

9:23 PM

"You were never part of his life"

Now that hurts much..

Woke me up too..

All along i was just deceiving myself...

That i would probably mean something to him..

But no..

I just chose not to look at the truth...

The truth was,

I was nothing..

Nothing to him..

As simple as that..

Pretended not to know..

Cause i couldn't face the hard ugly truth..

Cause of the pain..

Thanks for telling me that nana..

Really,

Thanks for waking me up..

Thanks for staying true..

Thanks for giving me the truth..

Good thing there is you there to talk to!

Friday, July 8, 2011

Quote

7:18 PM

"If you don't call me all day I understand, when you don't text me all day I understand, when I stop loving you I hope you understand "

This is for you.

This is how you treat me,

And that is how i treat you back.

G.O.O.D.B.Y.E.

Wednesday, July 6, 2011

Cried during a phone call

5:05 PM

Seriously...

That night was the the first time i ever cried during a phone call...

And i swear i'm not the type of girl who will cry in front of people..

So perhaps that was what i really call...

A serious mental break down..

I mean,

I do cry when no one is around..

That is what i call a mental break down..

But crying in front of people..

Guess it shows that i really just lost it..

Lost myself,

Lost my pretendence,

Lost my calmness...

I never knew that you would have such a great impact..

Or was it about other stuff that made that impact on me?

I don't know..

Recently got seriously pissed off with my life..

Too many problems..

Whether its about you or family..

Maybe i just couldn't take it anymore...

So i break down?

And of course, i'm not blaming the caller, Fadhlina, for making me cry :)

I'm glad she called..

Maybe cause i have been keep stuff in my heart for too long...

So i actually feel good after talking with her about my stuff..

She gave me advices too.

And somehow..

I don't feel as vexed as before now..

So i would like to say "Thank You" to you :)

And of course everyone that cared for me :)

I promise, i will find the old me again..

Well, someday somehow i will find it back :)

Ohhhhh, sorry about wasting your 45min of phone bill ya!

I felt guilty about that, hahas!

Friday, July 1, 2011

Tell me how

11:10 PM

I really wanna get it over...
But somehow...
I just can't...
I just can't control myself...
Will just drop by your page and see what's new...
Saw your checked-in...
And that just make me feel worst..
Cause apparently the reasons you gave me..
Was nothing but lies...
Reasons you told me you don't wanna go out..
Poor?No money?
Bullshit~
Seeeeeeeee! you get what i mean..
Now your all over my mind again..
FUCK SHIT!
I NEED TO STOP AND MOVE ON!
I DESERVE SOMEONE BETTER ISN'T IT??
A friend told me..
I deserve someone better...
but.... is that true??
sigh.