Seriously...
That night was the the first time i ever cried during a phone call...
And i swear i'm not the type of girl who will cry in front of people..
So perhaps that was what i really call...
A serious mental break down..
I mean,
I do cry when no one is around..
That is what i call a mental break down..
But crying in front of people..
Guess it shows that i really just lost it..
Lost myself,
Lost my pretendence,
Lost my calmness...
I never knew that you would have such a great impact..
Or was it about other stuff that made that impact on me?
I don't know..
Recently got seriously pissed off with my life..
Too many problems..
Whether its about you or family..
Maybe i just couldn't take it anymore...
So i break down?
And of course, i'm not blaming the caller, Fadhlina, for making me cry :)
I'm glad she called..
Maybe cause i have been keep stuff in my heart for too long...
So i actually feel good after talking with her about my stuff..
She gave me advices too.
And somehow..
I don't feel as vexed as before now..
So i would like to say "Thank You" to you :)
And of course everyone that cared for me :)
I promise, i will find the old me again..
Well, someday somehow i will find it back :)
Ohhhhh, sorry about wasting your 45min of phone bill ya!
I felt guilty about that, hahas!
