Sunday, August 1, 2010
Emotion Outburst
10:34 PM
I wonder...does being home alone let you become more emo?
Because I did..
I was home alone today...
Did practically nothing..
Went to facebook to see sad love story...
Cried for every sad love story I read..
Then thoughts came rushing in my mind...
They have that special one to create a love story..
But why am I alone ?!
WHY?!
I really have no idea...
Looking out of the windows and at the sky..
With the cold wind blowing..
All I can feel is loneliness..
Tears came rolling down my cheek like an open tap..
Thinking and thinking why do even this kind of girl have that special one but i don't have?!
[ I know thats bad thinking that way..but i just can't help it !]
Thinking why is life so unfair!
Thinking am I that bad?! I am worst than that kind of girl?!
Went to the bed..listening to songs..Tears still wouldn't stop..
Cool down a little...Tears stop..and it was already 6.30pm
Mum called to ask me to buy dinner myself because she was stuck in a jam..
And then she said " You used to call me automatically asking where am I..but now become i call you.. you changed hor.."
After hearing this my tears instantly flow out..trying to control it so my mum wouldn't know..
Giving her the orh orh orh and then hang up..
I started to cry again...
Thinking did i changed?
Really?
All those thoughts just keep coming to my mind...
Managed to stop myself from crying..cause i don't want my mum to see my swollen eyes..
Went to get dinner and parents came back at around 8pm plus...
Home alone really does set u thinking..but mine in a wrong direction..should be thinking about future but i just went wild thinking about stupid stuff!
FOOLISH ME!
